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LOVE…

Have you been in love? A question for a yes
or no but one can’t simply answer it yes or no…

Do you have even the slightest idea of how or
why or when love is… just a thought?

A thought of love… just a thought of
love… sometimes makes as strong as steel but also sometimes could make us
weak.

A thought of love… could sometimes inspire
as in every wonderful way but could somehow depress us that we felt so down and
all we know is our weakness.

A thought of love… could lift a spirit, a
companionship, a friend but could also sometimes leave as all by ourselves. It
could make us feel so terribly lonely in our life.

A thought of love… somehow brings a jump
for joy, a happy tears and joyous grin but in some ways, paralyze us to move, a
sad tears from our eyes and a weak smile from our lonely heart.

A thought of love… could make us feel so
miserable ‘coz we simply can’t have something or someone rather that all these
time we thought we love so much. We simply can’t let go something that we don’t
even have.

A thought of love… why let go if it could
only bring us grief? Maybe part of the undefined meaning love is letting go to
break our heart!

   LOVE… how much I wish love is love… as we all wanted loving
someone who loves us, too.

A thought of love… love gives hope, so much
that even the most hopeless could be a so much hope… that even the darkest
could be the brightest.

   A thought of love… love is so many things- things that could
inspire, make us laugh, bring us joy, lift our spirit, carry our sorrows, feed
our hopes, keep us the living and make all things possible but could somehow be
nothing at all. It might hurt us to the deepest depth of out heart and soul,
might ruin our happy life, grind our hopes, tear us down into despair and might
even take all our faith in all the possibilities.

A thought of love… have you think or have
you felt love? Have you think of the people who care? … Or how God showered
his blessing? Have you felt love from all the things you have and don’t have at
all?

A thought of love… love could be the
wonderful things by simply choosing to love what you already have…
   

A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she
is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is a
very high confident woman.

In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or
decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs
protection and certainly not be put only in the four corners of the house. She
likes to control and hide her weak emotions.

She will never try to change anyone, but she
will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, meaning
she doesn’t really like it… and will completely ignore that person. She hates
plastic and artificial flowers because it makes her feel that you are not being
sincere. She loves real flowers and its scent. She loves a guy who wears after
shave cologne.

If you are a type of a guy who wears your
Jeans one month before washing, or wearing an old sneakers, then you can forget
about her.

She loves music and nature. She loves to go
picnic in nature, so if you don’t have so much time for her, you can take her
fishing too. She is not as jealous as other zodiacs but do not cross the line.
Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels
like loosing face. She loves to dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush
her for this matter.

She has her own goal in life and does not
care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright
and intelligent then she will not care about you at all.

She likes smart people by character not by
certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and
go to the next stop.

She does not like a dreamer who talks about
his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don’t bother to
tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I
think you should do it, it’s good for you", because she will do what she
wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a
pigsty, do not take her there.

If you will go out on a date with her, try to
be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be
your last date.

She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy
on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor
you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will
help you in anything you do.

She likes to help people and expect nothing
in return. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own
confident than believing in "Luck".

If she is your wife, you will have nice and
clean home and a gourmet cooking. She is a 3 in 1 means, a perfect mother, a
perfect housewife, a perfect partner or you could say "happily ever
after".

When I see my friends,
I smile to them,
I talk normal,
I show no signs of heartbreak,
When they ask me about you,
I tell them that we are in love,
I tell them that,
We are so connected,
We can’t bare the thoughts.
Of leaving each other,
But deep inside,
The lies are just tearing me apart.

When I wake up in the morning,
I ask myself,
Why you are not here,
Why you are not laying,
Beside me like any other mornings.
At night,
When I have one of those,
Terrible nightmares,
I open my eyes,
Hopping that you are beside me,
But reality strikes me,
Like a thunder,
Waking me up to the truth,
The truth that you are gone.

The world doesn’t know,
Nobody knows anything anymore,
The world doesn’t know,
Underneath this happiness,
There are so much pains,
There are so much lies,
That I just can’t bare to tell them,
Can’t tell no one,
Can’t tell no souls,
But my own.

The world doesn’t know,
With all the laughter in the morning,
All the happiness at night,
When the lights go out,
I am all alone,
I am with no one,
No one by myself,
My soul.

When I look in the
mirror
I ponder exactly what I see.
A girl that has been hurt
stares blankly back at me.

Sometimes she is unsure
of what she’s all about.
But in time she will learn
to embrace the pain she cannot live without.

Pain becomes a core
of who you are.
It may lay dormant but
it’s never that far.

It begs you to take
each initial step.
Within the boundaries
of embracing every
tear that you wept.

It teaches you
that loves are here then gone
But in between the heartache
pain teaches us to move on.

You may tell yourself
it’s not worth going through
the difficult stages.
But it makes one stronger
& you appreciate all of
the different phases.

You find an outlet &
learn to move on through.
You see a facet of yourself
that you never knew.

I HaVe BeEn A
gLeAm In YoUr EyE,
I HoPe tHaT YoU wIlL nOtIcE hOw BrIgHt I rEaLlY dO sHiNe,
If OnLy YoU cOuLd HaVe BeEn MiNe,
In TiMe YoU sHalL sEe,tHaT iS wHeN yOu aRe WiThOuT mE.
I dOnT wAnT tO bE fReE oF yOuR tOuCh-
I wIlL MiSs YoU sO mUcH-
KeEp In ToUcH fOr AlL tImE,
AfTeR aLL I aM FiNe.

I call for someone to love me

But not a soul comes for me to see

Someone who’ll love me w/ my imperfection

That respect my every motion

With every thought and every breath

She’ll stay w/ me till death

Someone to kiss me tenderly

As she wraps her arms around me warmly

I need someone to hold on to

In my frightening hours but who?

Someone who understands,

As she caress me in my hands

I need someone to help me

To see the truth w/ the things I do blindly

Someone who knows my self

When I’m confused and depress

And I need help

I need someone but who?

Someone perfectly as you.

   When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure.
However, when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher.

In the game of love, it does not really
matter who won or lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and to let
go! You know when you really love someone, when you want him/her to be happy,
even if his/her happiness means you’re not a part of it.

Everything happens for the best.

If the person doesn’t love you back, don’t be
afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a
try. You’ll never love a person unless you risk for love.

Love strives in hurting. If you don’t get
hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time. Though
hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow.

   Don’t find love… let love find you. That’s why it is called
falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall. You cannot finish a
book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave
the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or
won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always
learning, discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when
you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we
love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more
we can love ourselves.

   On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back
on the horse. But don’t ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that
threw you at the first time.

To love are risk rejections, to live is to
risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. However, risk must be taken because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing!

To reach for another is to risk involvement,
to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not to
be loved in return.

   How to define love? Fall but do not stumble, be constant but not
too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart
or it can carve wonderful images in to the soul that always last for a
lifetime.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful
feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the
things that give you joy can also hurt you at the end.

Loving people means giving them the freedom
who they choose to be.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for
gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that
there were the things that helped you grow.

   Loving someone means giving him/her the freedom to find his way,
whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love is a painful risk to take but the risk
must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you’ll experience
the fullness of humanity and that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with
desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love know why.

   If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk,
if you’re not ready to take the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love.

There was a time in our lives when we became
afraid to fall in love ‘coz every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that
why its called falling in love. When you decide to love, allow it to grow. When
you promised to love, refuse it to die.

Mary are you merry?

Am I lunatic? I’m dizzy.

Angel in disguise.

Traffic in the sky.

Now I realized. But I dunno why.

Residue of rejection. Driven’ into oblivion.

Standin’ here like that of the naked oblation.

You said it’s not the right time.

Can’t you see me lyin’ dead outside yer mind.

And still, I’ll be waitin’, I’ll be hopin’

For yer love to come before I start decayin’

Never know. Never show…

Just hate to see you go.

No more tears… no more fears…

Stay with with me till the smoke clears.

Pain. Vain. Drownin’ in a sea of shame.

Dreamin’. Awaken. Murmurin’ yer name.

And there you go. Crashin’ into view.

Flashbacks. Memories with a splash of blue…

Let it be known. Let it be shown.

I kept my kept faith but it turned into stone.

Eccentric. So electric.

You and me in the attic.

Night cries. Alienated lullabies.

Sick and tired of hearin’ a million goodbyes

Could this be heaven? Could this be hell?

A fragment of imagination I can’t tell.

Is there something you wanna say?

I’m a beggar, begging you to stay.

Always feelin’ some kinda strange.

Tryin’ to be romantic not deranged.

The sound of your laughter sings in my ears

The last time I touched you it feels like years

Time really flies, but I’m not having fun

My heart stopped beating, your love is gone

But all the memories you left behind

They keep me going; I pass the time

Dreaming of you, holding me

Watching the sunset on

Waikiki

Our footprints follow the same path

But our hearts disappeared with each wave’s crash

It’s moment like those, I often miss

I can’t remember, the last time I felt like this

The doors of a rainbow, all over my face

As I try to say the words, I always fail

How I’ve longed to hold you, oh so tight

So now I’m happy to dream of you at night   
               

Not much happened since you’ve said goodbye

I live a life now filled with “realize”

“I should’ve, could’ve, would’ve”, I always say

But now the answers are so far away

What makes me smile now, what makes me sing?

Its memories of you; the remembering

My lips would quiver, if I saw you today

The words still lost I’m to shy to say